WARNING : THIS POST IS VERY BLUNT AND THUS MIGHT BE TOO DIRECT AND HARSH. THIS IS FOR PEOPLE WHO CAN WITHSTAND EMOTIONAL TALKS THINGY.




what do you want me to do. spend more time with you? i'm trying okay. just that our schedules clash. i do talk through the phone with you guys though. why. i'm really trying my best here. do you know how much it hurts? you have no freaking idea. yes i know i have not been spending much time with you guys and i'm really sorry bout that. it's...complicated. i want to spend time with you all too but i need to make new friends in class too. you can say i'm selfish and i won't deny it. otherwise i won't fit in. i have to think of myself now. if i don't fit in how can i do projects with them? or hold even daily conversations? i have to be selfish. if i could change back time, don't you think i would? wtheck. my hands are trembling. crap that.


Oh wow thanks. How sweet. You know what you did. But i'm not going to do the same. Why should i anyway? You guys should know too.

I initially wanted to dedicate yell - ikimono gakari to you guys. one part of the lyrics is :

[[ Every time (we) say GOODBYE to someone
Can we get stronger and make a difference?
Doesn't matter how far (we) fly away from each other ]]


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owQFLAkGsRc


Well. It seems maybe i was wrong?


And yes. Shann's theory was correct. You don't know how i face each day. It hurts like...shit. There's no way i can explain it anyway. Don't even think you know the extent of it.

in any case. I am NOT "breaking" friends with you all. I WANT YOU GUYS TO UNDERSTAND that i want to continue being friends with you guys. hai.


永遠に友達.



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